Meciul

Omenirea asista la un meci foarte important pentru a se decide pe cine va sustine in continuare. Se pare ca noi am ajuns undeva in mijlocul acestei confruntari. Meciul este Stiinta impotriva Religiei; in zilele noastre partida este si televizata, iar Stiinta are ocazie dupa ocazie, singurul portar ramas de partea Religiei fiind Papa din Vatican.
Inceputul meciului a fost dominat insa de Religie, inca la conducere. Noe a salvat cu o arca, Moise cu un toiag a rupt marea in doua, apoi capitanul echipei Religiei, Iisus din Nazareth, impreuna cu 12 coechipieri ai sai au condus atacul pana au inscris decisiv.
Printre ocazii se numara conceptia imaculata(nastere fara conceptie fizica), transformarea apei in vin, invierea unui mort, mersul pe apa, incercarea de daramare apoi reconstructie templu cu mainile goale ce a dus la golul decisiv, invierea capitanului echipei.
In acest timp, singurii aparatori ai Stiintei “clasicii” Platon, Aristotel si Euclid, n-au facut fata atacului, dar au pus bazele revenirii ulterioare. Aceasta revenire, puternic huiduita de publicul din peluza numita Inchizitie, a fost initiata de Galileo Galilei, un junior italian, cu incercarea sa de a dovedi ca planeta e rotunda. Peluza a fost redusa insa la tacere cand Magellan a dovedit incercarea lui Galileo, apoi alti juniori precum Newton, cu teoria gravitatiei, apoi Darwin cu teoria evolutionista au intrat in lupta. Stiinta nu s-a retras in defensiva si a introdus noi atacanti, pe rand, Thomas Edison, Tesla,si capitanul Einstein, decisivi in lupta impotriva numerosului public sustinator al echipei Religiei.
Ocaziile initiale sunt parca uitate, inseminarea artificiala inlocuieste conceptia imaculata, transformarea apei in vin se face cu pastile deshidratate, invierea cu aparate de resuscitare, daramarea cu buldozere sau la alegere cu avioane(vezi 9 septembrie 2001), iar invierea capitanului poate fi considerata moarte clinica, sau poveste inventata.

Meciul continua...

Alone

Tonight I found a piece of myself I thought was missing...but it was a part of me...

I've been trying so hard to make myself available to other people that I forgot to see myself as I was...Alone...as there is no one that want to see me just for what I am but for what they want me to be...

Everyone has conceived a person so perfect that anyone whom they've met seem to be anything but perfect...and we love to criticize because it makes us seem closer to that perfect person that we, in fact, created...

So I ask myself...should I try to be that person...that perfect person..?

No, I shouldn't...even if that means I should be alone for the rest of my life...I won't try to be perfect...or anything remotely similar to perfect...to hell with it...it seems as if I will marry loneliness.. So "Loneliness, I love you, will you marry me?"

Pathetic as it may be...thinking about it makes it even more fun...will I ever be hurt? Nope...it won't cheat on me...it won't say that I’m pathetic...it won't judge me for what I think...as most people do without thinking about their own flaws...

We've all been thinking that if we had a person to take care of, that person will make the world better for us...and what if...that person makes the world better?…
You remain the same and that better world won't accept you...What if...you find a person that you think will make the world better, but that person...won't even look at you...so...I ask myself...should you care about that?...nope...it will only make you feel like the tiny useless meaningless piece of shit that you are..

I said I found myself...yes I did...I am alone...and it's not just a state of mind...it's a statement of who I am... could that change?...maybe...maybe it's just this night that makes me feel this way...but maybe we are all alone...think about it...do you think that anyone...anyone...could ever really really know you?

Adulterul

De obicei suntem atrasi de ce ni se interzice. Poate de aceea adulterul, ca unul din pacatele decalogului biblic, si cel mai intens dintre instinctele animalice umane, este cel mai atragator dintre toate proverbialele “fructe oprite” …in afara de calugarite si preoti, dar si ei sunt oameni. De multe ori, in incercarea disperata de a ne absolvi de o “constiinta incarcata”, alte preconceptii juvenile intervin, adica “suflete pereche”, sau “dragoste la prima vedere”, sau chiar “fructul oprit” in sine.

Este mai greu poate de inteles atunci cand adulterul se petrece dupa multi ani de casnicie, desi cred ca este mult mai probabil, avand in vedere exagerata si constanta nevoie de inedit a omului secolului 21.

Pornind de la aceste idei, se pare ca biblia, ca si manual moral al majoritatii umanitatii, ne spune practic sa ne luptam cu instinctele animalice. Postul reglementeaza, sau cel putin asa vad eu ideea, tendinta de a manca haotic, iar ideea de adulter reglementeaza dorintele sexuale, care in regnul animal complet (incluzand omul) ar duce, in cazul speciei umane, la suprapopulare. Cred ca nu trebuie sa fii zeitate atotstiutoare ca sa-ti dai seama ca daca nu mananci cum trebuie vei avea o sanatate precara, iar daca sexul n-ar fi limitat monogam, cat de cat, explozia demografica ar fi si mai mare decat in ultimul secol.

Din toate astea, “IUBIREA” devine deci, fie expresia monogama a conceptiei biblice, fie atragatorul “fruct oprit”.

In primul caz, ni se spune ca cineva ne este sortit, o singura persoana pana murim, si chiar daca nu o gasim, tot trebuie sa ne casatorim, ca astfel viata ne va fi mai buna. O prostie, evident, si inca una contradictorie doar si pentru faptul ca este imposibil sa fii atras, atat fizic, cat si intelectual, moral, etc. de o singura persoana toata viata.

In al doilea caz, putem accepta ca nu vom iubi o singura persoana toata viata, iar monogamia, in sensul unui singur sot/sotie, casatoria, ne ajuta sa credem ca daca am stat cu o singura persoana, exista scuza “fructului oprit” pentru cazul in care…am “calcat stramb”.

Putem intelege deci, ca iubirea este ca un reflex dobandit, pavlovian; daca atractia este suficient de puternica, ii spunem iubire, si consideram ca acea persoana trebuie sa fie aceea de care ni se spune ca este cea cu care trebuie sa ne petrecem toata viata. Sub nici o forma deci, nu poate fi un reflex innascut, natural, pentru ca exista celelalte atractii, fata de alte persoane pe care le intalnim dupa acea prima puternica atractie ce a dus la monogamie, “adulterul”.

Social depravation

Have you ever felt alone?

In a quiet room, with nothing but your thoughts, you just think. Think about the world… religiously, socially, economically… isn’t it fucked up?
I mean…just as examples… religiously, most of us think or wanna think that a story from 2000 years ago dictates our way of life… socially, we think war is economical—some guys go to war just because they would get paid better than at home…economically, there are kids starving and kids throwing away life choices and other opportunities just because they can… you think porno movies are disgusting? Think about a kid that never heard about a microwave oven—how’s that for disgusting? We have computers and diets and TV shows…some kids don’t have water!

I saw a movie today …”The blind side” – one thought from the beginning of this movie made me wanna kill myself… …a black kid(Michael Oher) given the opportunity to live in rich family (Touhy ) mansion and presented to his room:

Michael Oher: This is mine?
Leigh Anne Touhy: Yes sir.
Michael Oher: I never had one before.
Leigh Anne Touhy: What, a room to yourself?
Michael Oher: ...A bed

John Lennon - God ( December 11, 1970)

God is a concept,
By which we can measure,
Our pain,
I'll say it again,
God is a concept,
By which we can measure,
Our pain,
I don't believe in magic,
I don't believe in I-ching,
I don't believe in bible,
I don't believe in tarot,
I don't believe in Hitler,
I don't believe in Jesus,
I don't believe in Kennedy,
I don't believe in Buddha,
I don't believe in mantra,
I don't believe in Gita,
I don't believe in yoga,
I don't believe in kings,
I don't believe in Elvis,
I don't believe in Zimmerman,
I don't believe in Beatles,
I just believe in me,
Yoko and me,
And that's reality.
The dream is over,
What can I say?
The dream is over,
Yesterday,
I was dreamweaver,
But now I'm reborn,
I was the walrus,
But now I'm John,
And so dear friends,
You just have to carry on,
The dream is over.

Undo

Exista momente in viata in care stii ca ceea ce vei zice sau face in urmatoarele momente va schimba cursul vietii, linia pe care mergem in fiecare zi incercand sa nu cadem de pe ea. Acele momente iti raman in minte sub forma unor imagini, „flashback”, imagini ce te urmaresc sub forma gandului „si daca atunci faceam altceva”...

Daca acele momente ar putea fi accesate precum pozele .jpg si apoi sa reluam totul altfel, si daca nu ne place sa revenim din nou si sa tot revenim pana ceea ce facem pare corect, apoi sa dam peste alt „flashback” si tot asa sa reconstituim totul pana in momentul in care inevitabil murim..poate atunci viata ni s-ar parea corecta.

Dar viata nu e corecta, si asta o stim cu totii, iar momentele acelea par atat de inevitabile incat ma intreb daca ar trebui sa putem schimba ceva la ele...pt ca totusi acele momente ne definesc, ne dau posibilitatea de a zice „asa sunt eu, si altul/alta mama nu mai face”.

Si daca asta e una din chestiile pe care le putem considera ca fiind definitorii pt fiecare dintre noi, ce s-ar intampla daca totusi am putea intra in memoria....computerului din capul nostru..si sa dam undo la tot ce am facut pana la momentul filmului respectiv?...Asta inseamna ca restul elementelor definitorii ar influenta ce gandim ca ar trebui schimbat..si atunci acele schimbari ar deveni tot definitorii?

Oare cati dintre noi ar alege, in cazul in care doar o schimbare ar fi posibila, sa schimbe ceva in cazul unei persoane iubite pierdute, si cati ar alege sa schimbe o decizie in afaceri? Asta asa ca tot vine anul nou si toata lumea face planuri pt anul care vine si cam toti vor sa schimbe cate ceva.

Altruism

The perfect love story…boy falls in love with girl…girl falls in love with boy…and the two of them grow old together and live happily ever after…
During your lifetime you meet approximately 2000 people. I mean the ones you talk to, not the ones you ran into or see on TV…How many of them do you know that fit this perfect love story? I believe… none.
Is it hard to grow old and live happily ever after? Perhaps not…but what if we were on a planet same as ours, but with different values, different as if we wouldn’t consider feelings as important as they are now…and the most important thing aside from money was altruism…??? And somewhere along the line of history being kind to the next person became the most important thing? Perhaps when human emotions became more important than power over a land or ruling the world…Is altruism part of the human behavior today? Certainly not! Think about it! Would any of you give a hug to a person obviously sad sitting next to you in the subway? No, because you don’t know that person. Do you have to get to know a person to tell whether he/she is sad? Obviously not!
Everyone’s beliefs depend on social background, and when love ends (whatever kind of love it is), a part of their social existence changes. They become more experienced and more reliable considering the fact they are now more aware that everything has an ending.